To Oren... with love

First off aI few random weekend update: 1. I was really sick yesterday. I felt weak and dizzy all afternoon and night. In the afternoon, I randmonly felt dizzy and started seeing circles. So my doctor lowered Maggie for me. But at night time, the found dizzy head remained unchanged. So the nurse had to call the doctor on duty. This time was wrost, I felt so sick and I could not eat. Note: Paris got me my favorite food Boom noodle. The doctor on duty got worried and thought I might be low in blood cells or iron. But they drew blood and did more test on me. I ended up taking a sleeping pill to help me to sleep. And this morning I found out everything was okay. My diziness also went away. Again, side effect from Maggie is so powerful. 2. A shout out to my sister in law @Noel Chavez. We got your awesome package. Thank you. Hope you had an awesome birthday and can't wait to come visit soon. 3. Yesterday was a happy present day. My threapist Holly came visit me at the hospital. Oh you have no idea how much I needed that talk with her and I miss going to her office. She got me a baby book for Oren. And I was told a baby book is a great gift for parents to make for their baby. It got me thinking about my stay at the hospital once again. All the doctors always say this is going to be the best gift you can give to your son. And he will know how much you have sarifice for him. When he comes out, he is going to be more precious than ever. I keep hearing similar comments from the doctors on a regular bases. On one hand, I thought, okay, maybe he will know. Or once I see his first smile, I will forget every single bit on pain I have been through at the hostipal. On the other hand, am I really that strong of a woman to go through all the pain. I mean this hospital stay is still a never ending stay as far as I know. Who knows what other painful medication I have to go through still. (side note: I had to take a turb shot last night also. Along with a new IV and two blood draws. This is 4 holes on my pretty arms!) But the baby book is so cute. Paris and I read through together. We can't wait to witness all the wonderful "firsts" with you. First smile, first tooth, first word, first walk... and of course, first shots at the clinic. We can't wait to have everything document in your baby book. Oh Oren, even though times are tough and there are so many times I cry myself to sleep. But trulthfully, we can't wait to meet you soon. (Tears start rolling again!) Some more interesting note: I woke up this morning and found a big hunky bruce on my arm!!!! One big BLACK one. Have yet to find out what causes it. A happy note: I get to go on my wheelchair ride for the first time tomorrow. I don't know if I can go outside the hospital building, but I GET TO LEAVE MY ROOM for the first time in THREE WEEKS. I better behave today otherwise my doctor will take back her promise.