crying for help

Within the past 12 hours, they had to give me 3 turb shots and they had to increase Maggie from 2 to 3. At level 3 that is when I feel completely sick. What if it doesn't stop my contraction? Are they going to crank up to level 10? Am I going to die before the baby is born? I am absolutely, completely, whole heartedly lost of hope. Why should I have hope when the situation is just going to get worst and worst second by second? Please, please I am begging for an answer. Where can one find hope when s /he has completely reached rock bottom?